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Wednesday, November 25, 2009,3:14 PM
After my second last paper, my JC1 clique and I went to watch My Girlfriend Is An Agent. That movie was quite nice. It was not about the things that we did that make me want to blog but the long lost ‘feeling’. During JC 1, we always gossip about lots of things. I love the time where lovely J would help me to correct my English. YH and I would be reading newspaper in the library. We would be complaining about our project mates. L would be telling us about her love stories. There were endless things to say…and that make me looking forward to school everyday. However, things start to change when our grades determined the classes that we would suppose to go. Only L and I were in the same class for JC2 and Jo, J and YH went to different classes. Sad!
After so many days of holidays (there is still 1 remaining paper on next mon), I finally realised that I have became so obsessed with studies that I have lost touch with many of my good friends. Apart from spending time on my studies, I spend most of the remaining time with my family. I dare not spend too much time with my friends on gathering, msn-ing, reading other blogs, chatting on the phone… during JC2 anymore because I know that I will feel very guilty if I were to spend too much time on these. The funniest thing is that I seem to be studying ‘a lot’ but I do not think I will do very well for my Alevel. Maybe it is something that got to do with Nature and Nurture. I may not be a ‘blue chip’ but at least I am a ‘hard working chip’ who has sort of tried her best. Any way, after the examination trails from the past 2 years, I feel desensitised on taking papers. Sometimes, even if I did not really study for the tests, I do not feel anything at all. If I were to worry about every single one of them, I guess I may end up with some depression symptoms again. According to many, they feel that the happiest days were during their college days where there was not much responsibility, commitment…. I was shocked? I thought that that was the most difficult days of my life. That means that the days ahead will be even more challenges and problematic for me!
Note: I think I will still do the same things over again. I may have lost touch with many of my good friends but I guess they will understand=) Labels: random.
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