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Sunday, April 15, 2007,3:51 AM
Dear friends
Today is Saturday, yet it seems like a Sunday to me...
This time, i should be in the band room practising for our SYF...
It seems abit weird for me to stay at home without rushing here, dashing there...
Usually i could watch Doraemon for only a few minutes then go for band practise.Now,i could watch the whole show without afraid being late for band.
It seems to be a good thing ar?! That's making me feeling weird...i am not used to it.
Alright! I believe everything happens for a reason.
I have been thinking for the past few days about what have been wrong!
When i heard the SYF result, i was stunned! Then amused, following that was sad! After the VP had 'consoled'' me, it turned to be disheartened. Lastly,i was angry!
Hahas...emotions are hard to control just like my tears...
All my life, i know that crying will n0t give me any solution! I was confirmed that i would not cry no matter what result we have achieved , but it just happened. Crying will not give us the award we want, it will only ''help'' to cause even more people to cry! I know that, that's why i have tried to control...but failed. I really appreciated my friends who did not cry,not because they are not committed to band but that shows how mature they are...
After that day, i kept cursing the 7 judges. Why they could not give us a few more marks, even if it's a COP Gold, i will be contented...
Then i realised how wrong i was. First of all i should not curse them, what if what i have cursed really happens?! They have family members who love them too...
I believe everything happens for a reason... Maybe Buddha want us not to take things for granted? Even if we g0t Gold during every SYF, we will never have a taste of failure. It might be sad to hear the word failure, but it really means alot. Failure,it's ache to hear this word ar?... but in my heart...we never failed. I have learnt alot from this band... those values!! Mr Er sarcastic words...i am going to miss them...i know.
Many classmates of mine said band members are proud. I did not know how they have got that impression, but i never agreed with that. Proud? What is the definition of proud? hahas...
This SYF have proved me wrong. First of all. i realised how supportive my classmates are. Instead of asking me not to cry/sad , they cracked funny jokes. Thanks my friends=)
None of my friends laughed at me nor said sarcastic words trying to make me cry. Thanks... Now, i really wish SQ will strike! May Buddha bless them!!
After SYF, i know it's time for me to concentrate on my studies! I have been slacking, i know it myself...
What's the meaning of explicable?
I am still not very sure..
But i know something...
We might not stay the same like this...
But!!
We are now like this...
I will never allow this to distract our studies...
I believe ur 20/20 will always stay that way=)
I believe my 5/15 will be 15/15 s00n!!
I know nothing last forever (just like the title of the storybook)
But, at least it happens before...
so...
No confusion...
No tough....
Stay that way...
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